I have long been involved in health policy and politics. I know that stuff inside and out. I am well-respected in my field.

But for the past few years something has been nagging at me. It’s been telling me that I’ve been going through the motions — sleep walking through life. I began to listen to that voice. I have begun to awaken from my sleep.

This blog is about what I am slowly learning. It is about the journey of a Newbie. It is more about questions than answers. It is about a process more than a destination. I am in no position to advise anyone else. I am no Paragon of Virtue, and certainly no theologian.

But maybe you are going through something similar. Perhaps you have some of the same questions. You may find my experience useful in your own life. Who knows? Actually, I can answer that question — you and I may not know, but there is One who does, and that is who I am trying to get in touch with.

— Greg Scandlen



  1. You might want to take a look at Presbyterians for Renewal website.I received their June 30 newsletter and it has a couple of interesting articles relating to the concern over direction of PCUSA and what others who are concerned might do. I could forward it but don’t have your email address.
    Keep seeking ; letting God lead you in the understanding of His Word will be so rewarding.
    Ruth Ann

  2. As we cope with imperfect, this equation is helpful.

    Hebrews 9:14 (NIV)
    How much more, then, will the blood of Christ, who through the eternal Spirit offered himself unblemished to God, cleanse our consciences from acts that lead to death,[a] so that we may serve the living God!


    Hebrews 8:12 (NIV)
    For I will forgive their wickedness and will remember their sins no more.”


    Pretty amazing stuff. Talk about grace.

  3. Speaking of imperfectION – typo – sorry.

  4. Greg,

    I read an article on the Federalist in which you stated:

    ‘Today’s pagans have their own gods just as surely as the Romans and Babylonians had theirs. These include the gods of sex, political power, and celebrity, and they are every bit as futile as the Roman and Babylonian gods were.’

    I remember hearing something similar when I was a kid in church many years ago. I’m surprised to hear someone 35 years later saying the same misinformed statement.

    As someone who doesn’t believe now, I look back on that statement and see someone who has no idea of what they are talking about. When someone gives up belief in god, they don’t find something else to take the place of the former belief. This is not how it works.

    No atheist says, ‘I no longer believe in god, therefore….I will believe and worship celebrities and politicians now.’ That is absurd. Which is why your statement above is absurd.

    When someone gives up the idea of a god, they don’t look for a replacement. Everything thing else stays the same…my admiration for celebrities (meh) and politicians (idiots), sex (pretty good) and money (I do ok-not complaining) are the same as they ever were. I simply no longer believe in god and no longer go to church. That’s it.

    Here’s my point: We don’t worship anything.

    In fact, its one of the reasons I stopped believing in god in the first place. Any god who demands to be worshipped is not perfect—even though that god claims to be. Far from it. And its not as though Yahweh is asking…he’s demanding-by pain of eternal torture no less. To me, a request such as that is evil.

    Can you name me any ancient god who didn’t demand to be worshipped? Can you name me any ancient god who didn’t require human and animal sacrifices be made to them? I think that is a very telling aspect of Yahweh. If Yahweh isn’t really any better than all the man-made gods…..wouldn’t it follow that maybe the one ‘true’ god is made up as well? Its worth contemplating at the very least.

    Another aspect your statement above fails to recognize is that the Roman and Babylonians gods were as real to them, as yours is to you.

    Christians are losing their influence in America and for good reason. We, ‘pagans’, simply prefer your make-believe god’s policies be kept out of public policy. By all means police yourselves—just leave the rest of us out of it.

    • You inspired me to post the article on my blog — which I haven’t done in quite a while.

      Obviously I disagree. I think that is exactly what people do — give up the worship of God to venerate something else You may be an exception (how would I know?), but many people get distracted from worshipping God by the allure of something they see as more immediately rewarding, something outside of themselves that provides meaning. It might be sex, drugs, and rock’n roll, or it might be the flag and love of country, or it might be a career and the status it brings, or it might be a girlfriend. Have you noticed how many love songs could just as well be addressing Jesus as a love partner?

      I think you are wrong about the Roman and Babylonian gods being as real to those people. They didn’t really expect much from their gods and viewed them with a jaundiced eye. Certainly they didn’t see their gods as loving mankind.

      I would guess your Christian education ended at quite a young age. Unfortunately the church dumbed down what it taught children — made it all seem like fairy tales. I can’t tell you how many people I encounter who reject Christianity because that is all they know of it. If so, don’t feel bad about it, Augustine went through the same thing. It took him a long time to get over the concept that if man is created in the image of God, God must look like a man. Michelangelo’s depiction of God as an old man with a white beard didn’t help.

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